Aaaaaand GO!

Sunday was a bit of an emotional train wreck where endurance and patience were tested. Motherhood training? Maybe. I got to go to church by myself 'cause hubby was sick again, or rather, still. Two hours of 4 boys who are five/ six years old and FULL of energy and too smart. Just plain too smart. Most of them want to be funny for their peers. One wants to be funny for adults. It's very interesting. We all survived but there has to be SO MUCH boundary placement and maintenance that it takes all I've got. The good news is the husband is feeling dramatically better today and should be with me next week. Whew! Our late Valentines/ early Anniversary was a lovely success! I won't say complete success because I (with the unclear help of our phone GPS) got us lost several times. It was an exercise in patience and finding joy in the journey. We stayed in a CHARMING bed and breakfast. It was so beautiful! I had that "I can't believe I'm actually doing something this cool!" moment - it was pretty surreal. But, the fact was that we had made reservations for a fancy dinner on the harbor and a relaxing night at the B&B and there we were being adults. Together. Celebrating each other. With loads of tissues, Nyquil (not me 'cause I'm prego), cough drops, Vicks vapo rub, lots of sneezes and some coughing. Could we have rescheduled due to illness? I guess. But this was memorable. This trip I got to experience Portland on a different level. I got to relax and soak a little more in. I want to do that lots and lots and lots more in the future. I see us returning to the B&B and enjoying more relaxing weekends. There's such a personal-ness to a B&B that it feels like you're staying with friends. I love it! This post brought to you by the pizza delivery man who saved me from making dinner. I love the internet!

Reflections of a Mother-to-Be

I haven't met this little person yet, but he's growing inside me bigger and stronger every day. I don't know how it gets more personal than that. We had an ultrasound when he was 10 weeks and it showed a baby with precious features on a body the size of a peanut. He's bigger now and every movement registers. It feels like someone tapping me from the inside. Is he trying to get my attention? Is he telling me that I don't have much time left until he's no longer on the inside of me? He'll be outside soon getting my attention in other ways. I am loving this phase of the pregnancy! He reminds me every day that he's there. I get to have him with me 24-7. Yes I have doubts about the future but I also have dreams at this point. I can still treasure my innocence. I don't know how worried I should be. I don't know at this point all the challenges our little family will have. Ignorance is bliss. For now, I'm grateful for what I don't know AND grateful for what I do know: a baby is coming!

Poems for Awesome

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Back at last! Poems for Awesome

Wow people. Wow! Almost two years ago I took a "friend" to the Marion County Fair. Now I'm married to him and having his baby in June. Blog: I've missed you. After dating and marrying a WONDERful man, I'm realizing that I want to get back to things I used to do. Just in time to have a kid and less time than ever, right? Of course! So here we go: Peace comes slowly listening to the fire Heart rate comes down body begins to tire mind still races wading through the mire expectations demand performance must be higher but I seek balance striving to walk the wire