Sometimes I feel like two different people.  There's the one Jess that has her life together and she's focused and driven and motivated.  The other one is the opposite.  She's fatalistic and lazy and lives to procrastinate.  Which one of me will win?  I want to be doing something different but that takes lots of effort.  Can someone just fix my life for me?  I went to visit my friend Jayne.  Jayne just bought a house and she wants me to move in with her.  Somehow I just can't make myself want to move away from campus.  I like the life, the transition-ness of this place.  I LOVE the green house with all it's drafty craziness.  Why can't I grow up?  I'm not ready to settle down.  Is that okay?